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Here’s the crazy thing I did….crazy like a fox that is! And how my life continues to change for the better

By May 25, 2017 Epicure, Living, Rambling

The Crazy Thing I Did

First things first, because I’m sure a you are on the edge of your seat!  I signed up to be an independent Epicure consultant!

Epicure. Good Food. Real Fast.

Epicure. Good Food. Real Fast.

If you don’t know what epicure is, check it out!  They are no longer a dip company.  I have been to two Epicure cooking classes in the last year, and each time I come away feeling inspired to eat clean and wanting a lot of their products!  This is why I signed up.  They have a program called Good Food.  Real Results.  It is a 90 day clean eating program and it costs over $200.  I am one of those people enjoys trying different things, and I like to jump in with both feet!  After about a year and a half of eating processed crap much more than I would like to admit, I am ready to focus on my personal health.

When I say personal health, the best change I can make is to eat more healthfully.  But I am soooo sick of veggies, the preparation time, meal planning and grocery shopping. It feels like work now, sometimes I wish I could take a nutrient shake three times a day and be done with it!  Now I can totally relate to my Mom, when I was a teenager I remember her being so annoyed by deciding what have for supper, making it and grocery shopping.  I used to think jeez… I can’t wait to do my own groceries, and cook whatever I want!  That lasted about well 5 years of living on my own, now I am desperate to eat good food real fast!

Epicure to the rescue!  They promise to teach you how to make a healthy delicious meal in 20 minutes or less!  This may turn into a bit of a food blog because I plan to keep documenting my progress with Epicure here, just a forewarning.

Life Feels Easier Every Day

Maybe it was the bike ride I did last night but I really feel great today!  My mood has caused me to reflect on the past few months so see how things are different.

Sleep is my best friend!

I haven’t used an alarm to wake up in 6 months!  Before you make fun of me, because I don’t have a job or kids to be up for; I have a standing commitment to meet my bestie and her babes for a walk at 8:25 am.  These morning walks have come to be a staple in my life.  I often used to sleep in and be late or miss them all together.  Now I’m up and ready to roll with Georgia usually before 8:25am! After getting a solid 8 hours of sleep!  Yep thats right 8 hours, am I bragging, a little.  For years trying to fit in a job, exercise, healthy eating, family and social relationships I was lucky to get 7 hours.  I go to bed now sleep, wake up feeling rested and start my day!

All that rest has translated into more energy.  It took a long time, I slept for an average of 10 hours a night for the first three months of not working.  I would even have naps too, looking back on it sleep was so soothing then.  My free time would be spent playing games on the iPad or watching tv, or playing video games on the X box.  This made me even lazier!  But it had the advantage of keeping my mind occupied, without actually having to do anything.  Over time I turned this energy into projects around the house.  This probably happened way faster from my partner guilting me, not on purpose, but what I believe was out of worry and fear for me.  He probably knows me better than I like to admit!

I came to  love DIY

I have always wanted to be that DIY person, I love the channel and all the shows on home improvement.  About a year ago now I had convinced my partner to renovate our bedroom and put in a walk in closet.  This project along with many others had been just sitting around waiting….for what I don’t know!   I changed out light switches, outlets, replaced the ceiling fans in the living room, a chandelier in the front hall, and put a new light in our bedroom.  We bought and I learned, with the help of family how to lay down laminate flooring.  I did the baseboard and the the trim in the bedroom, I even made the built-ins in the walk in  closet.  All of these things gave me so much self confidence and pleasure. I loved looking at my hard work, and loved showing it off even more!

Patience is key to renovations, which I learned.  By not putting expectations on myself I felt I was able to accomplish more.  When I had a job I always felt strapped for time, this caused me to become anxious and hurried all of the time.  If I try to hurry I make mistakes left right and centre, which in turn causes me to become more excited and anxious.  When I slowed down and focused only on the task at hand, something amazing happened!  I felt more relaxed, I accomplished more work, of a greater quality and was excited to do it the next day.  Then I realized this is called being present!  I was present for snippets of the day, and it wasn’t chemically induced!

Living day by day serves me now

Listening to my body helps me live day by day.  For  example if I feel tired I shouldn’t do painting because I’m going to make mistakes and get frustrated.  Ignoring my body and feelings had become a necessary survival skill that was no longer needed.  Sometimes when you don’t want to be around people you shouldn’t be!      It has happened to me before, I would go out with my running group and end up frustrated an crying.  This makes people compelled to help, but they can’t.  Then I would feel like a whiner and even worse than I had before.  I guess this is part of the reason I stopped running, it was no longer making me happy.  That realization in itself was huge!  It had nothing to do with my running group, and everything to do with me.

Do I have any regrets?  Nope, not a one!  Everyday I wake up and feel thankful for my life, and that I don’t have to go to work at my old job.  I’m not scared or worried, and I’m not counting the days until I get old and can stop working.  I went for my first Wednesday night ride with the cycling club, and it was hard, but very rewarding.  I have missed the running group dearly so I’m happy to try a new sport  and join a group of likeminded people to do it with.

Have a wonderful day and thanks for reading!

Shannon

 

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By May 24, 2017 Living, Rambling, Uncategorized

Weekend Update

Birthday Celebrations

Friday was low key,  I wasn’t feeling the greatest so I held the couch down and napped all afternoon.  Being well rested was super important because I had to celebrate my best buds birthday that evening!  We kicked it off with a bottle of sparkling wine yum!  Followed it up with going through our old yearbooks.  Ahh the laughter, my sides hurt!  It was just the two of us and a couple of dogs we had the best time!  It is great to have such a good friend so close by!

Camping/ Yurting

Saturday was yurt time!  The May long weekend is considered the begininning of summer so we had to kick off the season with camping!  Our campsite is in the middle of a field, with a spring.  It sounds weird, but it is gorgeous.

Georgia enjoying herself out at the yurt

Check out the view!

It’s not water view, but it’s pretty nice to me!

Cleaning out the yurt I found a snake!  YUCK!  I hate those creatures, they scare the crap out of me.  He was pretty small and brown, maybe a milk snake, he didn’t hang around, thank goodness!

The yurt is to be a place for family to gather and spend quality time together outdoors. I was super happy that my nephew and a couple of neices came out with their friends.  Unfortunately our party got rained out, BOO, early to bed for us!  This was my second night sleeping in the yurt.  It was comfortable until 6:30 am when my nephew woke me up because his blanket was soaked!  The temporary tarp that we had covering the yurt had failed us!  Luckily I had a brand new one ready to go on.  It wasn’t on already because I’m cheap and I was hoping to get the canvas sewn together so I didn’t have to use it!  It’s a McNabb thing lol!

After slip sliding in the mud and rain in the middle of a field at 6:30am we got back to bed.  Sleeping on an air mattress on the floor I could hear the rain running underneath the yurt platform. This gave me dreams of snakes crawling up into the yurt, lovely!

We got up around 10am and the rain had given up for a while.  We made a delicious camp breakfast of eggs and meat!  Funny how food tastes sooo much better camping.  Shortly after this it began raining again!  We retreated to the yurt, which now looked like a dungeon, since the tarp we put on is much darker than the old white one.  We spent a cozy afternoon in the yurt playing card games.

Camping Aftermath

I tapped out around 7:30 pm Sunday night and went home with the pooches.  I left my nephew and his friends to hang without the “old lady”.  They never said it but I felt like a dinosaur when I tried to make a joke about National Lampoons Christmas Vacation and all I got were blank stares!  The dogs were happy when I mentioned home, they both perked up and started wagging their butts. Ceaser especially enjoys the luxury of home, as you can see….

Ceaser living in the lap of luxury

Sunday night I enjoyed sleeping in a bed, without snake dreams and and getting rained on!  Don’t get me wrong I love camping, but I don’t love rain as much.  Unfortunately on Monday the combination of too little water, too much alcohol, sitting, poor eating, and possibly poor hygiene had taken it’s toll.  What an awful day, I had a terrible stomach ache, nothing was moving at all!  It felt lik I was digesting rocks.

Back to the Grind ;-o

My stomach was much better on Tuesday but still a little iffy.  I had energy and knew I needed to move if my digestive tract was going to clear out!  I cleaned everything, ahh it felt annoying but rewarding when it was all done.  With my nice clean house I could focus on other things, such as my blog, bucket list, and future!

I am happy to say that I have joined a cycling group and tonight should be my first group ride.  I went out last night for a 20km ride, my first of the season.  It was refreshing, painful, cold, hot and AWESOME! I tried to avoid hills, but a pretty big one snuck up on me.  It felt like I was going to die, but once I got to the top and caught my breath I felt stronger.

My awesome road bike

My ride all ready for the 2017 season

Maybe the bike ride inspired me, or my desire to eat more healthfully and avoid days like Monday but I did something SUPER EXCITING!  You can find out about it in my next post, which I promise will be soon!  I can’t wait to tell you how I am stepping outside my comfort zone and taking a chance on ME!

Peace out…

Shannon

 

 

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By May 9, 2017 Rambling, Uncategorized

Overwhelmed is the word I’m looking for today :-(.  The holiday was a nice distraction but now that I’m home i can’t help but feel the old insecurities creeping in and trying to suffocate me, scare me into going back into my protective shell. I’m pretty sure I blew the shell to smithereens though!

My mind keeps swirling with where to start, what to do and how to move forward but I can’t seem to hold on to anything.  Part of me says holy crap what are you doing, you did this so your life would have more purpose, why does it feels like you have less now. The other part of me wants to somehow step into the eye of the storm and into some magical calm space where I can slow everything down and make rational decisions.  I want to focus on this magical calm space….because it just came out while I was writing.

For me a number of things comes to mind, Eckart Tolle is the first one, he wrote the amazing book A New Earth, Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose, I haven’t read it in a couple of years but one thing that  I remember and use is the practice of asking yourself if you have anything to worry about in this very moment, by only focusing on the moment you are in you can live in the present. I am definitely taking it to bed with me tonight.

When I practice asking myself this question, the answer is almost always no, everything that my mind is trying to say I have to worry about is garbage.  I think I will read this book again, I remember getting so much out of it, I read it like I had to do a book report on it, I made notes, higlighted things, I didn’t want to miss anything. The book was so simple and yet so deep that I bought his first book The Power of Now, I started reading it but never finished it, I will have to put it on my list of books to read!

Funny how this post turned into a book review on Eckhart Tolle! Totally worth checking him out if you are interested in mindfulness. I also want to point out that when I started writing this post I felt like losing my sh#t a lot of times this am (its only 10:15) and I feel much more calm and relaxed. It is amazing how writing down your thoughts and feelings can provide clarity and mental relaxation.
So back to my life where to start first, I have a ton of projects on the go either in reality or mentally in my head! As I mentioned I like lists:

*-Finish moving into the closet

Closet Right

*-remove wallpaper in bedroom
-put up wallpaper and finish trim in bedroom
-make barn door for closet
-put up fence for front yard
*-inquire about renovating garage into bachelor apt
*-finish insulating yurt and start canvas(we want to camp next weekend)
-cut grass/tidy yards/flower beds
-remove flower bed in back yard and plant grass
-fix flower bed at the side
-make body lotion
-make dog food
-batch cook food and freeze

Closet view left, super proud of this closet, I made it all myself!

I used an * for the items that will provide me the most bang for my buck, or the ones that are most urgent.

Dreaded wallpaper wall! You can see why I am avoiding it!

I also have general life things to do such as clean the freaking house! Clutter makes me less productive, something I learned from Gretchen Rubin.

New wallpaper!

I don’t know why, but when the house is clean I can think more clearly, it’s like the clutter around the house some how clutters my mind. Groceries are also a must here! We have been away and have been eating out since we got home, which is not cheap. Therefore I must make a meal plan and a grocery list and go out and get it. We ate like crap last week and I am craving smoothies, salads and non-processed foods this week.

Part of my plan to not have a job is to spend less money as well, by meal planning and buying healthy food, batch cooking and freezing we can save money and help out our waistlines! Which is also why making dog food and body lotion comes into my list. Dog food is expensive and I don’t think it is that good for dogs so I have seen some recipes on Pinterest that I want to try out.
The same goes for body lotion, I have recently started making my own cleaning solution and face lotion, I am out of body lotion and I have a recipe I want to try. I made my own face lotion out of beeswax, argan oil, almond oil and aloe vera gel, you can find the recipe from Sweet Anne Designs

My homemade face lotion

I didn’t get the emulsification right so some of the aloe vera gel didn’t mix in, but it still works, and it has lasted a long time, I made it at the start of March and I still have a cup left, I keep it in the fridge.
I got all the ingredients locally from Lawson’s  in downtown Owen Sound. This is a great place to go, the owners and staff are very knowledgeable and will spend the time with you to get what you need.

Making your own stuff is actually very cheap, once you buy all of the carrier oils and things you need you might spend $200 but you will get many great healthy skincare products out of it. Have a look at what is in your body lotion and see if you can pronounce everything, they put so many preservatives in things that I want to try and make my own whenever possible. It usually turns out to be super cheap too!

Look at this I just rambled on and now I feel better! I have a plan for today I will make a meal plan and grocery list, get groceries, make body lotion, and finish moving into my closet. This seems manageable for today. Aaron just woke up and now I think maybe I should avoid him too, GAHH

Okay here is the thing, if anyone read my bucket list for 2017, which i secretly hope you didn’t, because I put on about quitting smoking, well I am almost 24 hours smoke free and I want to rage. I am embarrassed about smoking so it is hard for me to write about it. I was thinking about getting the patch or the inhaler but I read an article on it that made me decide to go cold turkey. It takes 3 days for the nicotine to get out of your system, when you use nicotine replacement therapy you are just delaying the inevitable. Because I have only been smoking for 6 weeks I decided to go through the 3 days of hell right off the hop. I feel bad for Aaron because he is on holidays this week and will be around, and is already annoying me! Hope he doesn’t read this! 😉

I want to say thank you to everyone who has read or shared my blog on Facebook.  I am on day 12 of the 30 day blog challenge and I’m starting to understand why blogging is so popular, it really is therapeutic.  So thanks people for being out there and being supportive!  I feel blessed xoxo

Shannon

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